So I got another raise (yea me!) but basically I was told that I am held up to a different standard then other people because I am a manager. Translation: you can't ever be late, or leave early or go to lunch or go on vacation. Awesome. I already don't ever take lunch and I am attached to my blackberry 24/7 , I take it on vacation because I would rather deal with the issue when it happens then have someone screw it up and me have to fix it when I return to work. So I am officially in the rat race. I work hard, they give me more money, I continue to work hard, probably even harder and the cycle continues. But with the money I make I just pay bills, I don't ever buy myself anything fun. I just recently bought a shirt and a dress for work; however I would rather wear jeans, a hoodie and flip flops to work. So my question is, where does it end, why do we as Americans have an ideal to live up to that is impossible? There is no way we can go to the gym, work 60 hours a week, have a relationship and get enough sleep to do all the above. And I do think it is much harder for American women; if you want to establish a career and then maybe have some babies you find that you are 38 and your uterus has dried up and even if you can have a baby, you will never see it because you have to go back to work to make money for the day care or nanny to raise your child.
I just don't want to wake up and be 75 and realize that now I can enjoy my life but I can't because I can't move, I live in a home, my kids hate me but love their nanny and everyone fun is dead.