My boss showed me something a few weeks ago, it was a write up of an experiment where a very famous, very talented musician sat in a NYC subway station and played for free. No one really noticed him, 1 or 2 people stopped to listen, maybe put a dollar in the bucket he had out. The week before this musician had played a sold out show at Carnegie Hall. The write up was implying that we all just keep going along in life not noticing what is around us.
The write annoyed the crap out of me because in life, in this life, we are accountable to a clock, if I don't get to work at a certain time then I can't accomplish the things I need to do, my job does not run on "island time", there are tasks that need to be accomplished by a set time because other tasks rely on it. But, the write up of the experiment did actually make me stop and think, which may have been the writer's intention.
In this life, in this country, we want, we all want what we don't have or once we have everything we want more. Our thoughts are consumed by wanting but not ever consumed with gratefulness, thankful for what we do have and accepting that.
I am getting married in 3 weeks, something I have wanted for a long time and I fought for it, for this ring, this piece of paper because I found someone that I love and I want him to be my family. And I am so very grateful for him so I am trying something new, just being happy. Not spending my days with my head filled with thoughts of "I want to be thinner, I want to be richer, I want a nice car, I want a bigger house, want, want, want."
C'est la vie is french for "That's life" or "Such is life", and everyday I will take all the bad and the frustrating shit I deal with and throw it away and just breathe and be grateful for all that I have.